Falling Forward into Paradise

I have been falling forward for 6 years now. Toggling between a free fall and grasping for any old semblance of safety.

On the 3rd of June, 2026, 11 months since my house in Nashville sold, I finally landed. I asked for the way to be cleared for my next home, community, partnerships, and Earthly landscape. I sold or gave away almost all of my possessions, keeping what I could store at my Mom’s house in Louisville, KY. I wanted to be free, unfettered, and authentically me. Maybe it comes easily for others or appears to. It took me many dark nights of the soul to get the courage to initiate it myself, instead of ignoring the signs and waiting for the hard knocks of Earth School. I hope others will learn quicker with ease, stepping into their power sooner. We’re not here to compare our soul’s “dark nights” but encourage one another so hopefully we can do it with more compassion and grace. The more people who step up and speak authentically about it, the field hears the truth, arranges itself around it and strengthens itself. Those truth-telling individuals start experiencing their destiny because they were courageous enough to feel the fear and do it anyway. 

I will let you in on a secret I wasn’t ready to tell until now. I chose to leave what felt safe to step into the unknown, despite the fear of failing, being judged, or what seems to be lurking under everything; the fear of running out of money as if it were our life force. Well, it’s not. Our life force is infinite and available if we make the choices to show up and claim it. It’s forever changing, coming and going like everything else. Unless your soul’s flame has completely burnt out (I don’t think it can), I encourage you to look at your fear differently. I could no longer ignore the inner voice telling me that everything we have been told about our power is a lie. What we thought was safety was taking away our freedom. 

Perhaps there’s a voice inside you whispering that there’s more for you in this precious life of yours; soul purpose is moving to the forefront now for you to see and hear it clearly. Listen, and see if you can hear it? Perhaps it’s showing up in your dreams, waking visions, insights and downloads. 

You have probably heard this quote by Marianne Williamson, "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." Why do you think this resonates with so many people, and was quoted by Nelson Mandela in his inaugural address? Because we have no idea how powerful we are. We are waking up to it now and remembering. Some of us have received these remembrances because we agreed to be here at this time and be a part of this awakening and ascension of humanity.

Don’t dismiss what may seem like a daydream or fantasy because it could be important guidance. I wanted to go to Belize when a college boyfriend went there on a diving trip and brought me back a pair of coral earrings. It sounded like an incredibly cool, interesting, undiscovered place, and I put it on my bucket list. I wanted to explore the world and move abroad for a while but didn’t know how to make it happen so I looked into the Peace Corps. At that time they didn’t need mental health care providers. They needed more practical things like builders and medical care. 

I forgot about it for a while, because I was working and putting myself through grad school. After graduation, I got married and moved close to the border in Arizona. I went to Mexico frequently and always felt instantly more relaxed in the more slower paced culture with what seemed like less ego-driven people. One of my best friends moved to Sayulita, a small fishing village close to Puerto Vallarta. I went there every year to visit and saw how it could be done by watching my friend’s example. At the time, it was undiscovered and felt like going back to a simpler, slower time in a natural paradise. I considered moving there, but again, I didn’t, and instead moved with my partner across the country to Vermont and had other adventures at the northern border. No regrets, because everything comes in its own time, and that relationship took me to Nashville, where I landed for 23 years. 

I’m a practical person with a history of making decisions based on what other people need from me or what makes the most practical sense at the time. My desires were considered, but only in that context and only if I thought it would be agreeable for those in my life, mostly family or my partner at the time. I thought that was love and devotion until I realized it was codependency and giving my power away. That has all gone out the window. The rules have changed. We are in charge now, like it or not. 

Everything I used as an excuse, interestingly, fell away, and I stayed in grief about it for too long but I think I was grieving for the ancestors too. The excuses I used NOT to follow my own internal compass were gone. No partner, no dog, no real sense of community in physical proximity. Although I had been in many communities over the years in Nashville, it would take some work to rebuild it following a painful breakup from who I thought was my soul mate. In the incubator of Covid lockdown, I wanted out. I wanted to roam. I wanted to make sure I wasn’t just escaping myself but it stayed with me. It was like the Universe was saying, “Uh, excuse me, honey. You went virtual for a reason. Your work is done here. Stop holding on. Time to move on. How about paradise? Are you up for it? No more excuses.” I had to practice what I preach and do the shadow work necessary to break down the internal barriers that kept me in the illusion/prison of perceived safety. 

Money is not God. I’d like to say that again. Money is not God. You, my dear, are an embodied God, Goddess, Creator, a Divine, and sovereign being about ready to create your dream life.

Are you in? You don’t have to know details. I didn’t but I asked for certain things like to be close to nature and community. I asked to be shown the way with clear guidance. Sometimes it was chaotic and messy. That’s honest, real but I learned from those experiences and took responsibility for the “mistake,” if any of it accidentally spilled onto anyone else in my immediate field. This shadow work, adulting thing is quite a trip and worth the heartbreak and perceived victim stance to show me the way to personal sovereignty. I hope you’ll share your freedom breakthroughs no matter the scale.

With infinite love and blessings,

Jenna